At my mom's house, thank god tmr is a saturday. Cuz if it was a weekday, I have no idea how I'm surviving school life now. I'm so lost and so confused. What am I going to do? I always ask myself. During lunch I feel awkard in class all alone. So I went to my other friends from different classes. I don't know what to do, sitting there, in my seat all alone, during lunch time. My classmates have fun during lunch, it is all they wish for. While I sit past during lunch, wasting my time. Lunch in S1 Ruby for me is like where I'd normally hate to be in. I feel so awkard. Being alone.

She hates me, she made everyone see me through her eyes. You were right Simran, you were.
I shouldnt have. I made my move too quickly, now, I'm nowhere.
I apologized to Cheryl. She still ignored me.
What can I do?
Who does she want me to be?
Why is she doing this to me?

School was awful today. I feel so neglected. Ivy hates me.
She thinks I expect Cheryl to apologize to me and she thinks I'm trying to snatch her away from Cheryl. So, I'm proving her wrong. I apologized to her - by email.
I'm waiting for her reply.